Greetings All from Redding!!
I know it's been some time since my last post, but God is moving in my life in so many amazing ways I had to stop everything to write about it. I have been going after two major areas in my life (besides my boys): an abundant mindset that releases supernatural provision and a supernaturally-healthy lifestyle. I've written declarations for these areas and for two months (the revised ones; I started beginning of this year with declarations) now I've spoken them over myself pretty much daily.
This week is relationship week at Bethel. The tools and strategies for healthy relationships and marriages that have been released are mind blowing to me. They may be old news to everyone else, but not for me. I received more information that I can immediately apply to my life this week than at any other time in my life. God is rocking my world!!
Tuesday night was ladies night and I had an encounter with God when they called forward those who have had eating disorders. I have struggled most of my life with unhealthy view of food and my body and have been going after this area now for 11 months. Something broke off of me and it was like I became a new woman. My heart towards myself and my body is finally beginning to soften; I've asked for strategies from God on how to battle this, and he has heard and delivered!!
I've had amazing financial testimonies - God prompted me yesterday to write out checks to myself from Him; one for $1229.65 (which is the remaining balance of my tuition) and the other for $3,000 (the amount for my missions trip next spring to South Africa). Last night I get a message from someone that says they want to give me $500 toward my missions trip!! Come on Jesus!!!
Last week I discovered a major stronghold in Max's life. For years now he's been shutting down unable to communicate his emotions at all when he experiences anger, fear or pain. It's just something I've learned to deal with, but I've felt all along that there was something else to it that I couldn't put my finger on. A situation arose that revealed finally that Max is a feeler in the spirit. He was at his friend's house and wanted to leave - that's never happened before - this was the second time at this same friend's house. He finally told me that when his friend's parents yell at the boy, Max can feel his friend's sadness and he was too overwhelmed emotionally to stay. I had a chance to minister to my son, explaining to him that what he's experiencing is a gift from God; that God is revealing secrets he's not telling anyone else just to him. And that God is asking you when that happens to pray for that person. So I walked him through this and loved on him. It was such an amazing experience for both of us; it really brought us together. Not only that but it later opened up an opportunity for me to witness to the boy's father!! SO good!!
Today in class we were led in an exercise where we were to ask the Holy Spirit what we needed to do to position myself for marriage (with the idea to think about it before you find yourself there, lol). So one of the things the HS told me was that I should ask my sons what kind of man they would like to see me marry. After talking to Michael for an hour, he finally confesses that he does not want to form any bonds with men including his own dad. I was shocked. He has never spoken of feeling this way ever - not even a hint. He told me he doesn't feel like his dad is his real dad; that he bonded with my ex husband instead of his dad, and when my ex left and severed that relationship, Michael checked out. He had a wonderful loving bond with me and his friends and other adults but not with men. Of course I was shocked and devastated to hear this; but the Lord had me in such peace right away. Like this was the beginning of healing for Michael. What once was hidden in darkness has now been exposed to light; it can never remain the same. I feel so amazing and hopeful about these areas where the enemy has been working to destroy my boys finally coming into the light!!! So I am just praising God right now knowing if he can redeem me, he can surely redeem those boys!!!
I was so blessed by loving notes and gifts sent by my LDP group back in TC!! You guys totally rocked me and I had an opportunity to take Michael out on a date just me and him and treat him like a little gentleman. He told me 3 or 4 times how much he enjoyed our dinner together. It was such a blessing to me - thank you so much!!!
I can feel the weight of my declarations building up in the spirit as spiritual currency for me!! That's the only way I can think of to describe what's happening right now. There is this momentum building in every area of my life where I have been contending for and positioning my heart to finally experience God's massive goodness in my life!! It's very exciting. God has also opened up a business opportunity to me. I've also had a new friend reach out and bless me in the area of nutrition and health and sent me a very generous gift of food for a nutrition program. He's also been preparing me to prepare my paintings to possibly show in local galleries after the first of the year. But most of all I am learning to be a prosperous soul. I am teaching myself through the help of Holy Spirit how to not fear money to see it as a powerful tool and to embrace my calling to be a funnel of resources for God among other things.
And I can't forget about the dreams and visions God has been blessing me with!!! Everything from painting ideas, to movies to video games to videos - I have been drinking in the igniting He has done to my imagination! I already had people tell me how much some of my paintings have affected them and even had a lady tell me I painted her recurring dream she's had all her life!! What?!! SO good!! It rocked me and her!
I asked for a miracle at work yesterday - I had somehow missed the ad deadline for our trade publication for the Christmas ad; my boss was furious. I prayed to God and publicly asked for a miracle in this area. I called the magazine and asked to get the ad in last minute (they were already going to print). I did not expect them to say yes; I knew it was too late but hoped that God would do a miracle. I found out today they accepted my ad and it will go to print!! Come on Jesus!! I am so blessed by that because it has been somewhat tumultuous since I've started school between me and my place of employment.
I can't tell you how much I miss all of you and how I look forward to and long to see you again and to hear how God is moving there in TC and for those of you scattered elsewhere as well. I am doing well. Truth is, I'm still living check to check and I'm behind on some bills still since the move, but I am able to rest in His peace really walking through this knowing He is good, He's my covering, He's not left me alone, He's taking care of me. I pray this finds you half as blessed as I am right now!!
All my love, Jen
